winter

Winter arrived, snowing blowing 40mph wind. Wind, something I've hated since I was little. Why? It took my breath away for health reasons..I remember my dad showing me the wind was fine when I was about 2 when all of a sudden a big huge tree came crashing down. That did it I screamed and cried. Never have liked wind or snow or white-outs since. How many times we came home from dad n' mom's after I was married I wasn't sure we were going to make it thru the white-outs. We did but on a wing and a prayer. Once our kid arrived I put my foot down, no more travelling other then necessary in the snow -- today we had to go we made it safely and it was only 15 minutes away but I still hated the wind. I wonder where the angel is that used to sit atop our tree -- I know I'm changing the subject but not really Dad bought that Angel for Mom and ME our first christmas together -- someday I'd like to hand it to our kid but who knows where it ended up after the farm. That's the sad part my kid will never know memories of his grandpa only his grandmother and his other grandpa. Memories need to be made but it's hard. God Bless Us Everyone even in white-out conditions. We have a travel ban on I'm glad we went earlier!!

Love

Christmas, It's supposed to be a time of Love and Giving and Celebrating God's Precious gift.
Why can't it be Christmas all year long?? I love all of my family I really do I just don't understand the hurts they have caused in the past. We need to forgive and move on even though it's hard we need people in our lives. And Christmas should be celebrated every day of the year not just one. Merry Christmas....Last night we watched in awe as the tree got lit. It was a memory for me as well as our son now to make my husbands holidays happier?? He hates them and I wish he wouldn't. It's hard to be happy when someone u love is not. God Bless Us Everyone said Tiny Tim -- yet he had hardships too but he still loved everyone we need to be more like Tiny Tim in today's weird world.

Oh the weather

oh the phone is ringing questions, and the fire is burning slowly, soon it'll be time to go and deliver what a show...the christmas chimes are ringing and so are my ears. OK I'm no poet but wow what a good week we've had. Last night our son felt ignored he stomped into our mailing room and said "Daddy you and Mom are watching Peanuts/Charlie brown christmas with me." And stomped back out. We laughed. We put our pens down and turned on the answering machine and with tea and pop in hand we felt like kids again. Sitting in the living room with christmas lights blinking around us glued to the t.v. watching shows we had watched as kids and listening to our kid laugh..then I felt a shaking "Mommy you fell asleep on me." With a pout so I played deep freeze on the computer with him instead he seemed content. It was midnight before we got to bed had packages to get ready for our customers....but it was worth making one more tradition with our child. Our traditions are NEW for TODAY compared to yesteryear and records and caroling that I remember but we still do hot chocolate and I hope we still make memories for our youngster. What is your favorite memory?

Humbug No Return

Well CyberSaturday worked better then CyberMonday for us?? Wonder why.
We teach our son to be frugle. He's downloading cybercoupons. Today he had one in his pocket, he's been saving months for horse.....We've been pricing this one, "Mom I can have it and it's still the cheapest with this coupon it's even MORE off." Was his reply as his eyes lit when his Dad picked it off the shelf for him. Our kid may have toys and lots of them but none are the expensive and always on half-price sales -- we want him to learn giving is worth more then receiving. We hate relatives that yowl about his toys they simply don't understand. Our son could become a cybertycoon one day because of his savings. He's learned to save at a very young age. Now he's saving for a hotel in the Spring. "If gas stays the same mom I almost have enough for one night." We grin and pray gas goes down a bit. Wonder why cybermonday was so slow for us maybe cause we got lucky and cybersaturday was good for us. God will provide.

Shopping..

Well Thanksgiving we were all sick except for our little one. So we watched the parade, ate at home, and slept. Not big on football.
HATE To shop so did shopping online that's not so bad it's quiet and peaceful.

When I was little, every Year before Christmas (we didn't have black friday then) My dad would pack us all in the LTD and off we'd go to town, but it was Friday Night and as I recall the Friday before Christmas. We'd stop at Ritz the candy store, and Murphy's, and the Shoe Shop where his sister worked, and Buyer's Fair and at the time a Special treat was the Christian Book Store for us -- that was all our small town had. It was a place to see friends, and neighbors. Farmers went but Only on Fridays when they got their milk check.
We only got candy at Christmas time so going to The Ritz was special...I can still smell the fudge and the cinnamon candy canes.

Years later when we were growing up those days quit. Why I guess cause town and shopping malls came into the area. The Small Town scene was gone.

Every Black Friday Dad would wake us up at 4 a.m. "Come on Gotta feed cows so we can go." I think it was HIS favorite time of the year. We'd Shop all day first at the Mall then at Hills the next town over. He'd end the day by showing us all the christmas lights in the town where he worked. We'd sing carols on the way home usually snowing.

My husband HATES Crowds and shopping. I was the first one to ever get him in a mall period. And waking him up before 8 a.m. ha ha ha..So I shop on line with a cup of tea in my hand. It was quiet and peaceful and memories of past days came flooding the mind.

Our store online is getting busy finally. Today my hubby is combining the last of the corn. The relatives are still down the road but they are still shopping -- yeech 3 days of shopping they do I couldn't handle that..

But I do wish we could start a tradition for our son, perhaps without knowing it we have -- the Train Store we go to everyyear has turned into a Christmas thing for our kid and he loves it he never wants to leave. What else could we do???

Happy Holidays

Rain Still, A Farm

What a day. We spent most inside stocking our store for the holidays. FInally have 50 things listed want 50 more tomorrow....

The rain matches our moods. All we ever wanted was a farm, a house a barn acreage, cows, horses goats and pigs. It doesn't look like we'll ever own one now. But we sell Farm things. It's our second dream. If we can't have one we'll sell stuff, Farm Related. It boosts our moods a bit and we smile. New HOlland, Minneapolis Moline, Case International. Oh to have the real hay mowers and farm tractors. Oh to have a real semi. Dreams for some reason shattered. Because of our parents sad to say. Not one but FOUR. Not one set would help us EVER. It's been a heck of a ride up and down. We're trying to start our own business from scratch. It worked for awhile but not now with gas soo high. I'm praying we don't go bankrupt. My hubby doesn't deserve it neither does my son. For 7 he understands way too much about no money and not being able to do things because of it. It's not fair to him. I hate all of my relatives for telling me over and over the farm was going to be mine some day. Now my husbands dad is doing the same thing, "Someday" Never comes. I wish we owned some land, not a virtual store.

God get me through this it hurts. I just want a place to live in the country with a barn that is usable. U see my dad rebuilt that barn for me. He knew I'd have health problems. He made it easy for me to do chores. I can't look back Ican only look forward. But I still hear him, "Someday this will be yours." I wish that someday would come. I can't go back the farm was sold for reasons I don't understand. It hurts.....

Now my father-in-law is pulling the same thing with my husband. Someday is never coming here either. I wish I could find a job. A Job that pays money every week not just once in awhile...I pray Christmas sales rise.

Today we have hope. SOmeone stopped and asked on a price of a tractor for sale, funny thing is we need that dumb thing we need a loader tractor but if we can sell it perhaps we can use the other one that's not as good. Please God let us have a bit of Christmas??

2002

The year, 2002, The day 14 days before Black Friday....We get a call frantic, "you'd better come, watch the place." "I have to take your dad to the hospital.' ""Please....the phone went dead. It was my Mom. No one remembers but my husband. No one believes she asked us to stay at the farm and guard it. We did -- And well -- our kid was 2 he was tiny and hated the cold but drive 3 hours we did. It was a thankless job feeding the cows and the dog. The dog would Howl at night, my hubby and I both said, This is it, Dad's dying. That dog is too sad. Black Friday we decided to go eat, we were hungry nothing for food left in the house of my parents. We went to Jamestown got groceries. Shopped at Sears, my husband still uses the shop light we got for 10.00 that day. Our kid had a ball looking at lights picking one toy a small car that lit up with shapes in it and made noise, one he had been playing with in physical therapy.

Back to the farm again. We couldn't believe our eyes. Someone an intruder had been there. The garage was well open, the drill press was going, the saws were humming and oh crap, the cows were in the road. It was then we called 2 other neighbors to come help and rounded the cows up and said NO We're putting them in the barn not leaving them per request. "The cows will be safer in the barn."

No one cared we got yelled at for stealing instead. I'm tired of family. It hurts everytime I see my sisters and mother's eyes the way they treated us. They act like we are things of the past and don't seem to care that my husband and I ruined a truck going 3 hrs per dad's request twice a month to help at the farm therafter.....I try to make holidays fun for our kid he doesn't deserve unhappiness he is good and wholesome and innocent. He doesn't remember his grandpa who finally had a boy and wanted to give him part of the farm. For me I hate holidays because of this they are just awful...

Christmas if we can sell enough we want to go away Our kid wants to see gramma I'm not sure I can handle it it hurts that we weren't trusted..

I think I know who came that day someone who is far away someone who lives 4 hrs from dad and hates me....but I can't prove it.....they sure caused a mess...it was what they wanted.

God Bless pray for me to make it thru Easter then life will calm down and be better. I hate holidays.

It's done

Woke up to rain at 3 a.m. this morning, just like my feelings -- yeechy...
Too many memories of hopes and dreams that never made it. I wonder why when I've tried so hard. One has made it -- My husband and My Son.

When I was little and it was the HOlidays I'd watch from afar -- well I wasn't that little -- I didn't have many boyfriends and I hated being Single. I was single for a long long time. I hated it when people relatives younger then I got married, it was the most worst feeling...

And being married was all I wanted. Then I went thru a lot of boyfriends... Today I have the best My husband and My Son. I know for me they are right. I'm thankful for them. They keep me going.

Our kids grandparents and Aunt and friend were here today. It didn't go to well. Our moods matched the weather. We couldn't combine corn as hoped. When u are farmers that comes first. We made it thru the day without too many fights. But smiling was hard for me. It just didn't come easy today.

I'm worried about too many things and don't feel good besides. Life is Life somehow for my kid and my husband I'll survive. God gets me through the hard times I hope....Good Night hope your turkey day is better then mine was. Oh yeah we didn't even have turkey no body really likes it had ham and chicken instead YUM.....God Bless...

Almost Tuesday

Good Afternoon, It's started Holiday Season, The older I get the less I like it..
I keep remembering of days past -- I think my most favorite Thanksgiving was one held at my grandparents. It was a weird year. Grandpa was sick and dying. But that Thanksgiving we had people there that I haven't seen since. One was a favorite teacher of mine another a favorite Uncle.

They touched our lives in ways you don't forget. One brought food. One brought his daughter to sit one more time on Grandpa's Lap. It's weird what you remember and what you don't. I don't think that year we had snow either.

I' m tired today. There's already been arguments on what to cook, how to cook it, what to buy, when to clean and when to work. Luckily our home-schooled child has today and tomorrow off, Our state has one week of fall recess. Our kid will have school by Friday though.

Now to face the present. It's been the warmest year ever. Neat I can handle the no storms bit.

Our firewood sales will pick-up after THanksgiving I hope. Customers on Thanksgiving, often. When I was a kid, NEVER. Weird. This entire world is changing. Not like it used to be.

Our kid will remember the good times I hope. We try to make memories for him. Do you make memories for your kids or for yourself???

Still no snow on Sunday!

Sunday, Up late, looked outside. Had to just had to take the kid somewhere for Fun...Too nice of a day not to. Hated spending the gas money but off we went to a toy store of all places. It's nice having a child that appreciates life, on his way he told his dad '"My new socks fit better, thanks."

We had fun, we watched the trains go around, the roller coaster slide down, and even spent money on a new game and chocolate. We felt like kids again. The lights shimmered. Now it feels like the holidays I told my hubby. Our kid had a blast, he found cyberchase -- his favorite t.v. show in a computer game. My hubby watched, Well our store is slow so is this one, was his comment. And I smelled FUDGE..YUM! It was a good day away.

On the way home we showed our kid the canal -- always home-schooling whether you realize it or not. We're doing a report on canals, and water currents Monday.

Home again. Did Chores, let our cat visit -- she can come in the house and visit but lives in our goat barn. I'm allergic to hair...

Our kid instantly went to the computer, he's playing his new game. Yeah spoiled but it let's Mom n' Dad list stuff in our store for Cyber-Monday.

Company coming Tuesday. It doesn't feel like Thanksgiving this year,. Getting Old I guess.
My memories of Holidays past are too numerous to count but one of my favorites was making homemade stuffing early in the morning or the night before Thanksgiving.
I still remember the one where the turkey didn't cook and Grandpa ended up taking us all to a restuarant much to his dismay. Funny what you remember and what you don't.

Our Thanksgiving will be celebrated Tuesday instead of Thursday with our child's grandparents and Aunt arriving for instead of turkey we'll have chicken and roast beef. Then Thanksgiving you'll see how we spend that.

Time to stock our store for Tomorrow -- we have a virtual one. Plus a Tractor Shop outside.
It was a good end to Fall -- one of the last few nice days I think..

Is it Sunday yet?

Whew What a day. Up early. At least the phone is ringing again. We sorted kid and tractor parts today -- took turns since we don't have a babysitter. Never have don't want one.
We stocked our store. It's still Saturday but it feels later...
At least we can still see green grass. That's cool this late in November....

My tractor memories of a farm when I was growing up is much different then our now tractor business. I can still see the tracks the ole Ferguson made trekking up to the woods to collect maple sap to turn into Maple Syrup. Now my husband spends his days in the shop tearing down tractors to sell pieces or putting tractors together again to fix for other people. It's a thankless job for little money but watching the customer smile when he hears his tractor purr -- that makes it all worth while.

It's not bedtime yet we homeschool, part of it is for our son to watch Globetrekker yes at Midnight -- he loves feeling special of staying up late on Saturdays if he's been good -- then he has to write a book report of it for school.

Been a long day and I'm tired, blogging unwinds me...Not time for bed yet.
Good night to you...

homeschool on Saturdays

School on Saturdays? It works for us. We homeschool. During the Christmas season and ours starts the First of November, we're busy during the week. So we play catch up on Saturdays and Sundays. That's the neat thing on Home-school. As long as you follow standards it works. It's hard and not easy being an instant teacher when you have little background. But life is life and we are now learning right along with our son. Home-school does it matter when? To us no, just so long u get the assignments done. Happy Homeschooling!

Hunting season

It's 4 a.m. yes a.m. The door opens, why he has a key. Dad's already downstairs, I'm groggly waking up. It's time. It's 5 a.m. The coffee's perking. Mom n' I are in our nightgowns. Listening to the guys. There are 8 of them all around the table. Telling tales of past hunting seasons. Of the time when I almost stepped on a deer but it was doe. Buck season has the most tales of all. Did anyone get ole Christmas tree?? Someone asked while sipping coffee and reaching for another piece of coffee cake. "Nope he died of old age, we saw the horns, they were shaped like a christmas tree all 13 of them." And so the stories went...Hunting season Past...

This morning at 4 a.m. a pick-up pulls in. I'm awake. Lying there thinking of Hunting Seasons Past...I want to write. I get up. This time no doorbell rings. Those days are gone. These are people we don't really know just allowed to hunt on property. It's not fun anymore.

At 6 a.m. the phone rings. I jump thinking is it? Oh no that was a long time ago. It's a customer wanting tractor parts. I gently wake my now husband. Our child is scared the phone woke him out of a sound sleep. I put my teacup down. It's time to start my day. Not as fun as being a kid but still a good way to be. Country living that's cool......

Happy Deer Season!

Nuts at Home

Hi, Brand New To Blogging.
We're nuts at home trying to figure out the new electronic world oh my!
From Somewhere in NY and it's finally snowing wow!

We love to homeschool so any help on that is appreciated.
We love to travel with the price of gas it hurts!
We love Minneapolis Molines of any kind.

We're new to blogging.
This year we've travelled to the Finger Lakes,
Canadaguia, NY
Hammondsport, NY,
Rochester Indiana,
Clymer, NY
Jamestown, NY
Corry, PA

We love attending Antique Tractor Shows and Museums..

We raise Goats, Molines, tractor parts And Crops.

Happy Almost Thanksgiving...