It's done

Woke up to rain at 3 a.m. this morning, just like my feelings -- yeechy...
Too many memories of hopes and dreams that never made it. I wonder why when I've tried so hard. One has made it -- My husband and My Son.

When I was little and it was the HOlidays I'd watch from afar -- well I wasn't that little -- I didn't have many boyfriends and I hated being Single. I was single for a long long time. I hated it when people relatives younger then I got married, it was the most worst feeling...

And being married was all I wanted. Then I went thru a lot of boyfriends... Today I have the best My husband and My Son. I know for me they are right. I'm thankful for them. They keep me going.

Our kids grandparents and Aunt and friend were here today. It didn't go to well. Our moods matched the weather. We couldn't combine corn as hoped. When u are farmers that comes first. We made it thru the day without too many fights. But smiling was hard for me. It just didn't come easy today.

I'm worried about too many things and don't feel good besides. Life is Life somehow for my kid and my husband I'll survive. God gets me through the hard times I hope....Good Night hope your turkey day is better then mine was. Oh yeah we didn't even have turkey no body really likes it had ham and chicken instead YUM.....God Bless...